The shift in my energy has been wonderful. It’s been good stepping into my power and owning it. The confidence that comes with that is powerful. But it has come with a lot of releasing. Crying can suck.
Crying for cleansing emotions and trauma is necessary. It is freeing. But it is also draining. My sleep has been go to bed around 10pm and wake up at 3 or 4am crying this last week. I may manage another hour of sleep. And I know the work needs to be done. I know it needs to come up. I let it. I am not sure why I am crying or the reason for but I let it come up. This is good. I no longer bury my head in the sand like an ostrich. I used to do this and it caused a lot of problems in my marriage and my life. So the progress can be measured in changed behaviors.
But the crying can be exhausting. It sits below the surface today, ready to spill over any moment. I will choose to see the good in it instead of the bad. It is not a bad day when this happens, just can be a bad moment. It is not a bad day. I choose to make it a good one
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