Tired

 I’m tired today. Stress of life brought on a migraine and it’s kicking my ass. But I know I have to shake this feeling. Yes, I’m tired.  Yes, life is awful in some ways. But if you only see the negative, that is ALL you will see. 

I am blessed with a job that lets me pay bills. I have a wonderful family that loves me. I have friends that support me. I have great kids who mostly succeed in life lol. I have someone to love who is the fight of his life. That is my stress, not being with him. I don’t share these crazy fears with him because he needs to focus on himself. So I put them here. 

But how can I see a blessing with this? I can do what he needs me to do and asks of me. I can be a place for him to find respite and maybe some laughter. I can organize his things around home so they are not chaotic and make him feel like this is his home. Does any of this matter?  I don’t know. But I am choosing to believe it does because it gives me focus and purpose. 

When we lose those, we lose ourselves. I have lost enough. I am thankful for the blessings I have in my life. I welcome in more. I know more will come my way and those I love will share in that abundance. Finances and health are changing for the better. So it is.